i'm feeling really down

[jcvoyager]

For the past 8 weeks i've felt really down i can't stop cryin durin classes and feel tired and have gone completely off my food. i went to the doctors and he sed that i was depressed.

My best friend went to a different college and we were really close it was the kind of friendship where we could finish off each other's sentances and we could look at each other and no exactly what the other meant. since then i've found it really hard.
i just feel so alone all the time although i do have some friends.
even with the frineds i have i get really paranoid that they don't like me and are only being friends with me for some reason but it isn't coz they like me and there's this one teacher that i've been tlkin to but i had a terrible week last week and wanted to go see her but i kept thinking that she probably didn't want to see me and was getting sick to death of me like every one else is but she couldn't say she didn't want to see me so she'd just get annoyed with me so i didn't bother going to see her. She saw me on friday and i told her bout that thought and she just told me to stop being stupid which really didn't help. No one seems to get how i'm feeling.

i just feel like i can't cope with anything and i can't help thinking that everyone would be better off without me

[Janeway Forever]

As someone who's battled chronic depression since I was about twelve, I know exactly how you are feeling jc. It definitely sounds like you are suffering from depression.

Please, if you EVER need to talk, pm me. I can't offer to always give you great advice, or to always understand what you're going through. But I can offer to listen. And to care.

[vanynessa]

We care here!! please, please talk it out........we're here for you. JF's a great person to talk to, or anyone here for that matter. I hate for you to feel like you have to go through this alone, so we'll be awaiting your message.......

[DDL]

Things will improve, even though it will be hard now. That's happened to me as well, and while it isn't easy, we're all here for you. <3

[Rowan]

for me when it all gets too much and i think i can't cope i focus on one thing, usually a little thing, something i can do everytime without really thinking about it. It gives me a boost to try something harder but i still try to only think of and do that one thing. Its probably in every shink book but it still works and is worth a go.

if u ever need to talk just pm me and remember i'm in a different time zone so u don't even have to fret if its the middle of the night for u coz that'll still be day time for me.

take care

[jcvoyager]

thanx so much it means alot that i know i have people who do care, i've been tlkin to another teacher part from the one i mentioned and i found out that she had been badly depressed when she had a miscarriage and she's better now and that helped me put alot into perspective because i haven't even gone through that much so i shouldn't be like i am and i've been tryin really hard to keep myself busy.
i bought 15 books which were all mills and boon so i plan to read them and i've started makin little spiders out of toilet roll tubes.
Some nights are worse than others though but i feel ok at the mo plus i no that i don't have to go to college coz its half term so i think that might have something to do with it and i've planned a holiday for next may, i'm going to Lourdes and its my aim that by then i wil feel alot better

[Rowan]

its good that ur keeping busy...even if i'm slightly confused how u can make spiders out of toilet roll tubes. lol.
i had nearly forgotten my brief obsession with mills and boon, happy little worlds.
i've just realised we're actually in the same country...i'm too used to talking to ppl in the states.
I work in a school so i'm on half term too. where bouts r u? we could meet up if u felt the need.

[jcvoyager]

lol.
the spiders are a little odd you cut the tube in half and them cut little strips from the bottom which make the legs, i first did it when i was in yr 3 which was years and years ago.
i'm in Birmingham, such a wonderful place lol where abouts are you?
i got a new friend well kinda my mom officially thinks i've flipped, i bought myself a little gizmo toy and now i talk to that which i grant is a little odd but its my replacement for my friend thats gone and made him a little bed and everything

[Rowan]

I'm in Luton...another wonderful place recently famed for its terrorist connections. lol
I have a Dopey toy that sleeps in my bed, I don't actually have the patients to make anythig for him.
Mums are supposed to think you've flipped, it means your doing your job properly. lol
You had a much better school than I did...no spiders for me. lol

[KateFan]

We are all here for you if you ever need to talk. I can tell you right now, and I'm kinda ashamed of it, but I'm going though a certian level of depression myself. The hardest thing is to hear that you have it and then to take control of it...not let it defeat you. So, like I said, if you EVER need to talk you know that we are all here for you!!! *hugs*

[Rowan]

there is never any reason to be ashamed of being depressed. everyone has a right to feel exactly as they want to/do feel. don't let it defeat u either KF.
tc both of u

[jt]

I've been there done that. the way I got out of it was I realize how much it was draining me and friends are asking what are you talking about? you know the tough love stuff. I just got tired of my life being like that. and thought I have choices.
if you ever need to talk I'm here.

[*clairevoyagerfan*]

poor you , you have it tough
but remember we are all there for you
and try to look forward -one event at a time- to the future
thats what pulled me through